It's my turn on the Kiwi Lane blog today, and I have a layout to share for our "Write From the Heart" segment. If you're new to my blog or don't know about Kiwi Lane, here's the scoop- Kiwi Lane is a small, family owned and operated business that creates templates that make your scrapbooking a whole lot easier! And everyone at Kiwi Lane is always overflowing with inspiration and creativity!! You should definitely check them out, if you haven't already!
For this installment of Write From the Heart, I was able to work with one of my favorite manufacturers- Authentique! I have loved them from the get go and their "Joyous" collection is another beautiful collection that those awesome creators have given us to help showcase some of our holiday memories!
Supplies: cardstock (Core'dinations); patterned paper, die cuts, small letter stickers (Authentique); ink (Ranger); glitter glue (Ranger, American Crafts); brads and flower punch (American Crafts); brown letter stickers (Pebbles, Inc.); washi tape (Downtown Tape); paper bag (craft supply)
As is my specialty, this page has some hidden journaling. And a rather lengthy explanation of why.
This photo is of me and my Grandpa about 5 years ago. It's the last photo I have of us together. The next morning he aspirated on a drink, had a series of strokes and passed away in the hospital on New Year's Eve. I did not even know this photo existed until my mom showed it to me a few years ago. I had it printed and sitting in a box, waiting to be put on a page. I just didn't know how to give this unflattering photo the words it deserved. It wasn't until our inspiring blog-hostess-with-the-mostest, Kristy, started doing pages for her book about her beloved dad, who passed away earlier this year, that I realized it had to be done. I had to find the words to go with this not-so-great photo. Before I continue, you should know two things about me: 1) I don't like to show strong emotion... in anything. 2) I rarely cry. I might tear up, but the tears are not quick to fall. Finding the words for this layout went against both of those things. I decided on a letter to my grandpa for the journaling format. I figured it would be easier to write to him the things I wanted to say, rather than write like I was telling someone else what I wanted to tell him. And it was. It is probably the most emotional piece of journaling I have ever written... top three for sure. Don't get me wrong- I am a stickler for journaling, but it's usually very superficial. And the heartfelt letter on this page had me crying... no, I was bawling! There were many times that I had to stop and wait for the tears to subside so I could see enough to continue. And I hate crying. But, it was worth it! I was able to capture what I had in my heart and now it's preserved for the future.
Now, because I am not an outwardly emotional person, I would never share my innermost thoughts and feelings with the general public. But, because I like you, and we're friends, I'm going to let you take a peek at my heart. This is what my letter to my grandpa says:
It’s been awhile. Just under five years, to be exact. Five years and not a day goes by that I don’t think of you, remember your stories or feel your presence. I miss your chuckles when I say something silly. I miss your stories (yes, I was listening!). I miss the loving way you always looked at Grandma. I miss your words of wisdom. I miss the way you never failed to call me your Princess. I never thought I would miss any of these things if they were gone. But. I do.
I still have my memories of you, though, for which I’m truly grateful. Like this photo. This unflattering, quick snap of the camera that captured some of your last moments with us in this life. It was Christmas Day. We taught you how to play Apples to Apples. You laughed and had fun... a rarity in those last few years. You even ate some Christmas dinner- another rare occasion as your appetite seemed to diminish after your last birthday. We were even able to tell you that we were expecting our second child. It was a very good day!
I’m so grateful to have had you as my Grandfather. Some people may think that 95 years was long enough to be in this life, and I agree. You had a long, full life. But, there will forever be a hole in my heart where I will miss you every day. I’m thankful for the time I was allowed to be part of your life here on the earth, and even more grateful that we are part of an eternal family. It’s comforting to know that I don’t really have to say, “good-bye.” Just “until we meet again.”
Thank you for being my Grandpa.
(Photo taken 12/25/2008; Journaling written 12/10/13)
Thanks for letting me share with you today! And I encourage you to Write From the Heart- especially when it's hard to find the words!
Mini Scallops 1A, 2A
Christmas 1, 2, 3
Tiny Holiday 7T
Tiny Tags 1T, 6T
Tiny Brackets 1T, 4T